{THE UNCHERISHED}

Saturday, April 23, 2005

wah~
im so stressed out now!!! mid year is like approaching in 5more days or less ....
i wanna cry already.
hmMm. destressing now for a while. so i decided to blog.
i screwed up my oral both eng and chi yesterday.
so much for jeremy's advice man.

but anyways ...
THANK YOU JEREMY !@!!! and to those who have helped me in anyway ...
tt guy jeremy... u might think he's not smart .. but think again ... he is!!!
just thankful that he wld take time off to help me. and believe me... i can be very hard to teach ...
when u have to start to teach frm scratch ... hehx.
but in a way i helped him too ... at least he would not forget is work ...
hahs.
tmr going out with rach rene and kh..
after church !!!
whoo hoo ...
gonna buy .... *winnks~*
hahs. still high jesse mcCartney!!
budden.
gotta study ...
byeeeee

waiting for him ... ... .... ... .... only him. even if it takes forever.

forever.

3:52 PM
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Tuesday, April 19, 2005

im like crazy with jesse McCartney songs now.
i think the lyrics are greaT! weelll ...
this is my 3rd post today ... including the "beautiful soul" lyrics...
this goes out to that special him ...

7:37 PM
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"Beautiful Soul"
[Chorus]
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna
let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah

7:30 PM
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for the 1st time in my entire life ... I DIN CHEAT NOR DID I WALK the whole run!!!
hahs. soOo proud of myself!!! my timing was 16mins39sec ...
i know that isn't fast ... cuz i was pushing my other frens who are big size like me (*before ) to run. not bad lahx. they actually passed their 2.4km and they thanked me.
hmMm.
can understand how they feel ... cuz i was like tt once not long ago.

i have a new crush. hahs. only rach knows abt it. mabbe rene. but i dunno wad to do. there ARE some complications. hmMmm. he might not accept it but anywayz ... to be able to see him at least once a week is enough for me.
i tink im like going crazy ... i have never done anything like this before ... i had tried all ways and means to find his contact. of cuz got it in the end. thanks to my fren. hahs.

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whoo hooo~
im like 0.5kg more to lose before i get my $1000 bucks!!!! hahs. so happy. i lost 9.5kg!!!!
den im gonna lose MORE weight ... so i can doll up myself for prom night!!
and when i go into poly next year ... it wld be a fresh new start in an unknown environment for me. hopefully can get a bf!!! hahs. now also can~ but i wld not have much time to spend with him.
sighzZz. nothing else to write le.!

5:33 PM
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Wednesday, April 13, 2005

hahs.
it was my mum's bdae today!
went ter MERITUS MANDARIN hotel to have this buffet dinner.
wah~ my mum knows i dun take dinner. purposely one !!!
she was like forcing me to eat. and i was like -- going to die!!
so i ate a little. dun waste wad. if not my older brother complain~
spoil my mood only. kaozZz~

nvm. after eating... i began taking pics.
i wanted to take the pic of all the shuai waiters tt was there.
but i cldn't. i tink that they suspected i was gonna take them so they are always having their backs facing me. THANKS AR!!!
but nvm...
had fun ... LOADS.
im gonna go there for my 21 bdae! i dun care. den got ppl playing the guitars and cello for me. and can request for songs somemore....

gonna slp le. haven done any work yet .. sighzZz.

10:20 PM
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Tuesday, April 12, 2005

sighzZz.
i had such a GREAT weekend !!!
why does it have to pass sOOo quickly ...
sob sob ...
i hope tt they wld not come until the end of the year..
den we can chase like crazy nut heads!!!
burned an extremely BIg hole in my pocket ..
now im like left with wad $2.++ in my wallet now.
thanks to 5566 .
budden it was worth it.

went with kh to maggie's hse on friday after skool.
we were gonna stay overnight for the entire weekend.
all thru the night we were talking.
we shared our sad childhood and the goodtimes we had.
so ... we cried like crazy. i mean ... really CRAZY.

after our crying session. we went to soak our feet in hot water.
tt was like 3 ++am in the morning lahx!
WAH~ not hilarious at all...
the 3 of us we sharing one tiny pail ... so it's like so squeezy in there.
but all the dirt in our feet we removed!!! soOo clEAn!!!!

den we had our facial!!!
1st. we sliced cucumbers ... secretly went back to our room and put them arnd our face ..
we were like laughing at each other cuz we all looked soOo extremely stupid!!!
den maggie's mum came out of her room. i tink we were making too much noise le.
so we TRIED holding back our laughter. but failed lahx.
when her mum went back in to her room. we started laughing again.
so we decided to do something else... i went to turn the lights on.
HAHS. they were laughing even harder now ...
cuz cucumber seeds we all over our faces !!!
not hilarious at all wad...

2nd. we went to take yoghurt out frm the fridge to put on out faces.
not funny wadx. maggie was laughing at me cuz i was putting it like im washing my face with cleanser can ... hahs.
we were laughing and laughing ..
stomach was hurting like crazy.

3rd. me and kh actuall wanted to put the firming mask ... but i was the only one tt ended up doing it. kh was helping me put onto my face ... she best... went to put the firming mask on my eyelid ... den i ended up to being able to open my BIG BIG eyes and wash it in the toilet. smart leh!! but anywayzZz. we had loads and loads of fun.

decided to slp for a while.
but ended up waking up at 9++am. and i was suppose to meet miss ang at 8.30am.
ended up not going. *misss ang was like suan-in*me on monday.
we left mag's hse to go far east to meet lao ban niang. found out tt 56's flight lands at 11.40am and lao ban niang not late wad. so kh and mag went to buy their clothes and i stated to wait fo her to open.
cab down to airport. just nice 56 just came out, rush to find uncle. ry din make it. wah~ when our maxi bside their bus... we dun even dare look at them in the eye. cuz they were like staring at us the whole time. so we pretended to talk. hahs. mag had a great idea of placing all the cds at the window. smart lehx! den they were noticing it the whole time!!! sighzZz. they were like so friendly the whole time. den ry joined us. i tink it was a wasted trip for her. wasted 3 whole hrs doing nothing. came to only see them go back to the hotel and see her shao wei and renfu get of the bus.

sunday=> sighzZz. suppose to meet at conrad at 11am. me and kh woke up at 9++am.
best. left the hse at 10 ++ am and reached there at like wad ... 10.30am??? so we went food court next to conrad to have a drink. met ry there. at 1st we tot 56 left or something. like no one else was there lahx. we were walking arnd tt place and found this huge candy stall ... man. it has soOO many candies there man. was so tempted to buy. but didn't lahx. later scared no money.
hehx. met uncle. went up the maxi and waited for 56 to come out of the hotel. there was this gong1 zuo4 ren2 yuan2. which went up this bus/van PA341XXX. she bet tt she's not kh if tt bus was no tfor 56. in the end .. she was wrong!!! so malu can. den 7227 came. this time really 56. and not many ppl were chasing lahx.
so we got alot of time to communicate with them thru' .... paper.
i asked: hui qian wan ma??
renfu showed us the ok sign and xiezhi was like giving us this look.
kh said it was very se4.
wah~ best lorx.
when i wrote: ni men chi dao le.
renfu was like. nodding his head. giving us tt seriuos look. again xiezhi gave us tt look.
when i showed tje paper saying: meng zhe, ni bu yao zai huan fa xing le!!
renfu and xiezhi was like looking and xiezhi started laughing !!! thanks horx.
den many things happen ... renfu was like shocked to know tt we haven sign our albums.
den they went back to their hotel. change their clothes and went mediacorp. me kh and maggie went for nkf.
not high wad...
den went back to mag's hse. 12am le.

mon=> rush down to meet ry and uncle. went to their hotel. waited. den chase them to the airport. see them off and went to skool. reached at like 7.45am.

shall blog another day.
mum's scolding le.

8:09 PM
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Wednesday, April 06, 2005

hahs.
left skool on the dot at 3.30pm today.
was gonna meet up with my church buddies at lot one for our study grp.
so i cab-bed down. needed to tell smething to hilarious to rach.
and soon the whole gang knew. they were trying to figure out why am i so high on hearts these days.
they tot i had a bf. LIKE NO~ not until i get like 10kg lighter. hahs. ok... not tt bad lahx.
anywayzZz. it is not kaiheng ... neither is it MING eN. man~ i wld jump of the MRT line and get knocked by the train if i liked the both of them ... i HATE GUYS FRM ACS (I)!!!!!!
if ur reading this.. and ur frm tt skool... too bad. who ask for my older bro to be in tt skool and he's freaking irritating!!!!!

gtg watch tv le. might blog later...

7:25 PM
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Tuesday, April 05, 2005

hahs.
decided to start a new blog.
i obviously dun wanna let certain ppl to see this.
but even if they do ...
i dun really know wad will happen.

just venting my anger here... all i really wanna say is at the bottom.

u say tt i have a black face ... wads wrong with having it? u call it black??!! if u can't stand it, dun turn around lahx. ask yourself why i have come to having this black face?? to think that i have even helped u. i can now only say that i was fucking stupid to even help u after i fell out with a certain someone. but heyz, who cares anyway ... all i know is that i've treated my frens as they shld. i nv held anything against u guys. although i was mainly the target for all of u to suan at, i nv put it to heart no matter how much it hurts. covering up with just laughing along. and like wad the hell lahx ... one wrong thing tt comes out of my fucking mouth and BOOM!!!! u guys hates me.

man ~ if i had attitudes like the both of you all ... i wld have hated the world by now.

i really dun get it . one minute u can treat nicely and the next u fall out with me! i mean ... wad the hell man~ u all can make fun of me ... suan-in me all the time ... u think tt's not mean to me at all ??? have you ever thought of how i wld feel to become the subject of your joke??? and now ... only one wrong sentence tt comes of my fucking mouth and you hate me!!! wads the world coming to man. yeah ... so wad if i had said things about your grandmother?? of all the people in the world, u shld know tt i dun mean wadeva stupid things tt comes out of my mouth. yes. i know i shld be guilty and feel apologetic. but hey! i APOLOGISED!!! and you dun know how guilty i had been for that one week. but of coz u wldn't care. it's u who do not want to accept my apology.

but at the end ... i believe tt God wants to put me thru' this for a reason. well, if we were all not to go on with our life and still brood over this phase in live ... den Christ has certainly died for us for nothing. Christ had died for us when we were yet sinners, before we come to this world and our lives would not as it wld be today. so matter how much this goes on, even if were to know each other in future ... i will still carry on. living the life i want ...

just wanna let u guys know ... "after venting my anger above" ... tt no matter how much u hate me ... i will still treat u as a fren ... i wld also not forget the good times we shared, the laughter we had, how u've helped me and how i've helped you, the times in REAP, dec ... etc.
if i were to be given a second chance to live life again ... i wld want to be frens with all of you again. i nv regretted having u guys as frens. thanks so much for being my fren ... really appreciate it. u all have made me feel special ...

come to think of it. im just sad .. not tt im guilty or anything .. but is tt i had lost a fren, who i can relate to, talk to, have fun with, study e maths with, to me ... she wld always be my close fren. though now drifted apart .. all i can do is just to pray for her and wish her luck in her future endeavours.

if you ever read this ... you know who you are. thanks for caring for me when i was sick, i'll nv forget wad u had done for me. if wad i had really said was hurtful to you, i just hope when we leave this skool, u wld just forget me.so ... wish u all the best .may your dreams all come true.

to you guys .... my prayers wld always have u all included inside. ALWAYS.

7:20 PM
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