{THE UNCHERISHED}

Sunday, April 30, 2006

im at like xavier's house now.
waiting for him to get ready so we can go down to MOS.
anyways. ive decided to let go of all the hurtful feelings i have in my heart and let him be free to love someone else. there's no point for me thinking about it anymore. it may still hurt from time to time, but hey!! life still goes on. the world still continues to turn and won't stop for no one.
i won't let anything affect the way i am.
i would still be me.
so to all my friends who are concerned about me ... im fine!! really. i am.
so don't worry to much about me. i can handle it.
it would never be the end of the world just because of one guy.

2:59 PM
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Friday, April 28, 2006

i went for band practice today.
i really don't know whether i should join band. i really don't.
i haven't like touched the flute in like 4 years until today.
i've gone all rusty. but i really don't know what should i join for my cca.
what i do know is that LSCT society is definitely one of my choices.
what should i choose?

12:09 AM
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Thursday, April 27, 2006

in the band room now.
hahs.

5:55 PM
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whoo hoo.
im at like SIM's "marche". just finished my black pepper steak! whoah.
damn filling man.
now im like slacking.
im like freaking tired because i had to wake up at like 6am to go to school for OBC lecture at like 8am. i didn't want to get caught in the jam, so i left the house early. but there's like no difference, beacuse i only managed to go to school on time, when every one was like entering the LT.
OBC lecture was like boring. and the LT was like freaking cold.
WAH. was shivering like crazy.
anyways. it was like OBC practical like straight after the lecture. so we had to walk from the convention centre all the way to the LSCT block.
OBC practical was fun. the instructor was like super loud and funny. but half the time i was like doodling on my manual.
hahs.
anyways. it only lasted for like one hour and we are off. after that we went to eat. and our next lecture is like at 3pm.
3 hours from now can...
slack slack slack man.

12:14 PM
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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

i've decided to give up on love.
maybe one day some guy would love me for who i am. but till that day comes i won't believe in it.
all i just wanted was that someone would love me the way i would love him. is it too much to ask for?
i'm like tired- emotionally, physically and mentally.
waiting for someone for so long is EXTREMELY tiring. at the end of the day, the person doesn't even like you.
i hate it.
i hate relationships. i hate the pain you have to go through when somebody says they don't like you. i hate it when you have to face the pain of breaking up.
sometimes im afraid of committing myself into a relationship because im afraid of breaking up. maybe that explains why i haven't been in a relationship throughout the 17 years of my life. i hate sad endings. i don't want to end up like my parents.
i hate fights. i hate crying. i hate quarrelling.

so i think i'll concentrate on my studies for now. that's the most important thing to me now. i'll just take things as they are. a step at a time. no rush. i want my first relationship to be almost perfect.
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im just a girl wanting to be loved, to meet a guy that would bring peace to my insecure heart. i found that one guy whom i thought would be the one, but things had gone astray. it did not turn out what i had expected it to be. instead, it took a turn for the worst. now we aren't even talking any more. how bad can get things get?
i wish to meet a guy like that in a fairytale. who would sweep me off my feet, make me feel loved and secure. a guy who would make my heart beat faster at the sound of his voice. a guy who would make me blush at the touch of his hand.
however, the harsh reality begs to differ.
there is no such guy.
if only there was.

8:20 PM
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in school now.
hahs.
very slack.
2hours break.

10:23 AM
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Tuesday, April 25, 2006

i feel that i have been blogging quite regularly ever since i got my notebook. isn't that wonderful? at least people who read my blog won't wonder why have i not been updating my blog.anyways, i had my practical today. it was ok.
at least the lecturer wasn't that boring.
after 2 hours of learning about the stuff in the lab, using the micropipette and writing our report ...
we were let off early cuz we like finish the assignments early.
so we went off to canteen 5 to have our break cuz it was like half an hour more to our tutorial.
the food there ... HORRIBLE. im so never gonna purchase any food from there anymore.
at 3, we went to our classroom for our tutorial and guess wad???
our lecturer was on MC. so we left school earlier than usual.
i went to buy my TB and met rachel at canteen one.

after which i went toa payoh to settle my singpass and the place was like closed by the time i had reached there. so i just activated my ez link card and walked around the place with rachel and xavier.
we shopped and shopped. looking at handphones and clothes. bags and shoes. etc.
eventually we made our last stop at MOS burger before heading back to BPP MOS burger.
i LOVE Mos.
i had the milk shake and yakiniku rice burger and i still think that the burger that i cook taste so much better la.
anyways.
im like home at 1050. went online. started blogging. chatting on msn. blah blah blah.
i think i'll sleep soon.

10:56 PM
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Monday, April 24, 2006

i went to school early to download the softwares into my laptop. afterwards met up with josephine, jun zheng, siang yun and wanyan for lunch at canteen 5. i had like 2 sausages for lunch because the canteen was like FULL!!! wah! it was hard finding a seat so we had like no appetite to eat.

can you believe it??? i was like LATE for the first lecture of the year. hahs. went to the wrong lecture theatre because we were given the wrong information. man. what a way to start the year. hahs. anyways. that lecture lasted like half an hour. what a waste of time man.
anyways.
our next lecture was at like 3pm. so me , JZ and JOSE wandered around the campus searching high and low for our lecture notes and all we could find was our IS notes.
after which we decided to go SIM to eat yet again.
i ate the jap stall YAKINIKU rice set. YUMMY!!!
then it was more lecture again. this time it was like the FULL 2 hours. but the lecturer was like damn boring.
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i shall fast forward to after the lecture.
me and jose went to search for more lecture notes. WAH. we walked from like one place to another. let me tell you ... it's a LONG walk.
we managed to get one more lecture notes. after that we went to have dinner at the library cafe. when we came out, it was like RAINING CATS AND DOGS! what a perfect ending for the first day of school.
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after school, i went to sit at MOS with rachel till 930. bought myself an OP skirt which cost like 10 bucks! it's like dirt cheap can.

nothing much really happened today la.
i hope it would be better tmr.
i'd better remember to bring my labcoat and goggles tmr.
and my laptop.
there's like practical tmr!
i think i better go sleep soon if not i wont be able to wake up for school tmr.

10:39 PM
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Sunday, April 23, 2006

woke up at like 1015 today. i was supposed to meet SIEW MAI at BPP MOS at 1030.
i ended at being late by 5 mins.
went to all the bread stalls to find cheap but delicious bread to fill his hungry stomach. so he ended up like buying from 4leaves. although it wasn't cheap.
anyways. he offered to carry my HEAVY notebook for me whilst heading to the interchange. so sweet of him to do so.
in the bus, we were like choosing where to seat on the bus so that the sun would not shine directly on us.
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when we had reached davin's place, both of us plonked ourselves on his bed and started to sleep. we were both extremely tired! especially me! i was like a pig man. den the 2 of them started to gang up against me to keep me awake by tickling me all over la. seriously ... i can charge them with molest. WAH. that'll be so mean of me.

etc...
many thing happened la. i'll keep mum about it. those who want to know can call or IM me. i won't write it out here on my blog because it's too public le.
hahs.
all i can say is that
I LOVE MY SIEW MAI!!!!
more with each new day.
CHENG LONG!!!! you still owe me 10 siew mais!!!!
XAVIER!!! up to date you also owe me 7 HAR GAU!!!
please pay up as soon as possible!!!
i'll chase after you all for it!

1:41 AM
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Saturday, April 22, 2006

i love LSCT!!!
i love IFRIT!!!
i love my new FRIENDS!!
i love my old FRIENDS!!
i love my new notebook!!

just had my LSCT FOC camp awhile back. it was like damn freaking fun la. shouted till i had like no more voice. if you talk to me now, you would know what i mean.
seriously, those who did not go for the camp really missed out on ALOT! these experiences cannot be bought with money. friendships made would be long lasting.
i had loads of fun! i mean LOADS!
to all the girls out there who missed it!! you missed out on all the kinds of guys that they have there. those with the hot BODIES, those that are geeky but CUTE, the cute AH BENG looks, the hot bods but ugly face ones. etc..

i want to sincerely apologise to my group's GLs. sorry that we're not as spontaneous or sell-on as you thought that we would turn out to be! FRET NOT!! at least we know that the friendships that we built during the camp will last.
we really bonded during the camp!! and it's all thanks to you guys!!!
LSCT rawks my socks!!

to all the people who are intending to enter NP's school of LSCT, please DO join the camp and be prepared to get down and dirty during the games. seriously... i mean it. that's the only way you can have 101% fun!
i will never forget the experiences i had during the camp!!!
I LOVE YOU GUYS!! ALL THOSE FROM LSCT!

1:04 AM
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Thursday, April 13, 2006

whoo-hoo~
today's my mum's birthday!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!
anyways, i got her birthday cake and a present.
when i gave her the present, she was laughing like mad and she said she needed it.
hahs. guess what i gave her???
LOREaL'S ANTI-AGEING TREATMENT MASK!! .
i didn't know what to get her.
so i thought ... she's really getting older, so why not get her something that helps with the ageing part of her.
all in all, she was really touched that i gave her a wonderful birthday gift.
and the best part was ... i used my own hard earn money to make her happy~!
hee hee.

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aLOT HAS HAPPENED. even if it was just a day or two.
many things can happen.
i was watching ONE TREE HILL last night at 3a.m.
there was this one phrase that impressed me very greatly.
REMEMBER TONIGHT, FOR IT IS A BEGINNING OF ALWAYS.
WAH.
nice man. it invokes alot of meaning in it.
anyways. school is going to start pretty soon.
so i guess i'd better turn back my biological clock and adjust myself to waking up early.

3:26 PM
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Tuesday, April 04, 2006

man.
the previous post was just to let me vent my anger.
anyways. it's raining. and i'm suppose to go running later!!! WAH.
i hope it stops. soon.
i got the song cheng long wants.
WAH. he owes me BIG TIME man.

3:53 PM
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i don't really care about what you think about me.
i really don't.
because i know that what you have ASSUMED is WRONG.

-i don't think that you're sticking your nose into my life.

-i can't be bothered that you moved away to another chair.

-so what if you can't take an honest remark?

-you're not making my life miserable by moving chairs. DEFINITELY NOT! i'm more than glad that you move away because i'm afraid that you'll sprout out some random answers that does not make any sense at all!

-since you're not using my notes, or you think it's out of the syllabus than don't come asking for any more notes from me because i'd rather give them to someone who would appreciate it. someone like RYAN.

-i never said that you BACKSTABBED me. you just diss me on your blog that's all! like isn't that bad enough already.

-and yes. I THINK YOU'RE A HYPOCRITE. there .. i've blogged once before and i'm blogging it again. YOU'RE A HYPOCRITE. don't say i didn't tell you.

-i never said you were talking to yourself on the blog. i mean, if you blogged about being with your friends then you're not. if your passing a message to your friend then you're not. please get your facts straight. if you don't understand anything that i've said on my blog. FEEL FREE TO CLARIFY WITH ME.

-who cares whether your prayers are personal? frankly speaking. I DON'T CARE at all. REALLy. it's not the matter of whether it's personal, it's whether or not it's done in front or behind closed doors.

-and of course i know that others read your blog! you think i'm stupid. please. i'm not ok. in fact, i'm much smarter than you think i am. it's a public blog! if you didn't want people to read your blog, you won't even publicise on your blog even.

-of course i'm criticising you for having your belly pierced. it's bad enough that we pierced our ears already,you go ahead further and destroy your body. and wait. alcohol is only SHORT-TERM. don't tell me that you don't drink once in a while.
it's called exploring? and i won't ever do it again. EVER. it stinks.

-i don't stereotype people.

-like i said before, i can't be bothered about you. so why would i be unhappy about sunday.

-and yes, you DO laugh at people's misfortunes.

-i don't care whether you call yourself GOD's child because i know we all are.

-i'm not comparing vocals. i don't care whether you sound like a crow on stage. im talking about HOW YOUR LIFE REFLECTS ON STAGE WHEN YOU'RE UP THERE WORSHIPPING. please ... read my blog properly. i don't want people finding me and said that i was mean to say that my VOCALS are better than yours.

-i think you do HATE kaiheng. if not you won't be laughing at his misfortunes before.

-i know the difference between like and love. but i don't think you WOULD know. since you were 2-timing kaiheng with victor.

-and please ... i can't care less hanging around you.

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so what if you know more bengs and lians than me? i've seen more things in my life than you can ever imagine. i know what bengs and lians are like. i don't hate them.
they don't even care what i think about them, why should you even be bothered about it? just because i said it was so AH LIAN of you to pierce your belly doesn't mean i'm calling you ah lian. and let me correct you. PIERCINGS ARE NOT SCARS. it is deliberate. you had it done on purpose. SCARS have nothing to do with piercings.

and what's with the secondary school people being all noisy or whatsoever? i'm referring to those people at McDonald at KOVAN when me and rachel were there. please. im not referring all secondary school people. i was once like them too!

man. how do you go on dissing about me in your blog this long??
don't you ever get tired? because i know i am.
but the show must go on. i must let you know what i think.

what made you think that me and rachel got close because of you?? you're not that great ok.
the day me and rachel became close friends ... you were sleeping. so which part of us becoming close friends got to do with you?
i was close to you because you were my friend. not because i wanted to get closer to rachel. i was already her friend. so don't think you did much with my friendship with rachel. i can handle my own friendships very much thank you.

of course i have alot of time on my hands.
im not schooling yet.
school isn't going to start till 24th april.

if you think that dissing me on your blog is time consuming ... then don't blog about me! it's as simple as that.
i'll just diss you back when you blog about me.

2:27 PM
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