{THE UNCHERISHED}

Friday, June 30, 2006

i have been sick recently.
after all the late nights and the lack of sleep, who wouldn't???
i was late for school on wednesday.
CBIO tutorial started at 9am and i only woke up at 8.55am!!!
my head was throbbing like crazy and i was running a fever!
nevertheless, i still rushed to get ready for school and reached there at 9.20am.
i went for the GL interview that day!!!
i'm really sorry if i had let down any GLs that day!! i didn't mean it!
ok.
i was late for school AGAIN today.
but not that late. i had to go buy my bus concession.
OBC lecture=> we were having a picnic at the back as usual. munching away, trying not to fall asleep. then we had to rush for practical.
peifen and i were like SO Lucky ok.
we had an ALCOHOL for our unknown substance. i hope i'll have that for my practical exam!
it was so easy to do.
then i had my CBIO lecture and after that, i rushed down to work.
ARGH.
late AGAIN.
by the time i had reached back home, it was already 1130.
i think i should do my work and sleep soon.
i need to rest.
i shall blog soon. I GUESs.

12:28 AM
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Tuesday, June 27, 2006

ok.
it's 2:18am on a late monday night/early tuesday morning.
and what am i doing?
hahs. rushing through my projects! as you can see. I ALWAYS PUT THINGS TO THE LAST MINUTE! but however, my work done is better that way. hee hee.
i'm about done with my cell biology project. the only problem is my OBC project.
gosh.
i haven't seen the ppt slides and the presentation is like a couple of hours away.
anyway. i'll take a step at a time.
i think i shall hit the sack once i'm done with the summary report and thinking of what to say for my part of the presentation.
i really have no idea on what to do with the rest of my projects. i better not tire myself out to badly.

i think i shall blog about today.
i went to sleep at about 5am the previous night, only to wake up at 11am to get ready for school.
i've finished all the vcds that i have borrowed from NIAN SHUN. hahs. crazy right?
i think i am too.
today is the first day of the 2nd term in my new school. how time flies man!
in another seven weeks later is my EXAMS and then BREAK.
a long well deserve break.
i made a resolution not to sleep during lectures! and i shall keep to it.
i will NOT and i mean will not sleep in lectures unless necessary.
this is the only way i can help myself to get a better grade in my studies.
and i guess i should quit MOS soon. i cannot let myself be involve in too many things.
sometimes, too much commitment is bad. especially if you have poor time management.
therefore, maybe it's time if i let go of some.
nothing else can be more important than my commitment in church and school.

besides blogging about all these stuff.
I WOULD LIKE TO CONGRATULATE YIDE FOR UPDATING HIS BLOG!!! like finally.
hee hee. well, i hope you keep it up!!! don't forget to tag my blog if you ever DO read this!

ok.
i better get back to my summary report.
shall blog again soon.

2:21 AM
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Sunday, June 25, 2006

went to the gym with my KOR today. rachel and xavier PANG SEH us!!
KOR said that rachel cheated his feelings and promoted me from XIAO MEI to CHAO JI DA MEI!!
WAH. what an ugly way of calling me.!!!

we started on the treadmill first.
so we ran and ran for 30 mins. YAY!!! it was an achievement for me!
30 MINUTES NON-STOP.
i was never able to withstand 10 mins before.
the best thing was.. i wasn't panting at the end of the run.
i think the phrase "MIND OVER BODY" really is true!
i kept pushing myself to run 5 more mins everytime till the machine stopped.
YAY.
anyway. after the gym, my KOR wanted to go swimming. so i just sat there as he swam. i fell asleep in the end.
psst. I TOLD YOU I WAS A PIG.
i can sleep ANYWHERE.

after which, we walked back to LOT one to meet up with rachel and xavier.
but we left there first because rachel needed to settle somethings with someone.
X stayed behind to accompany her.
so we reunited at BPP MOS burger.
KOR did HDC.

we ended up going to JURONG POINT.
walked around and ate at the kopitiam.
went back after that.
he had something on at night.
therefore, xavier rachel and i went back to BPP MOS burger and slept there.
met up with cheng long there.

after rachel and xavier had gone back, cheng long and i went back to MOS and started talking.
he was telling me stories about china's history and the generals and blah blah blah. so i listened intently to what he was saying. but to tell you the truth, i didn't understand half of the things that were coming out from his mouth.

when the store closed, i started to notice that i have been getting alot of bruises lately.
some of which i can't remember that i have bumped into something at the particular spot before.
then it suddenly it struck me. what if i'm going to die?? i haven't done ALOT of things yet. and i mean ALOT. like falling in love, getting my mum to trust me and let me stay out late at night, having a nice and proper job, graduating from school, find my soulmate, get married, go for my honeymoon, travel around the world, have kids, etc.
i can't possibly go just yet.
i hope GOD can allow me to be selfish this once. it's not that i don't wanna go up to heaven to meet him, however, a man would never be satisfied. in my case, A WOMAN.
i know that everyone would go, it's only a matter of time. but how would my family feel?? how would my absence affect the people around me??
cheng long said that i was being to NEGATIVE. but really?? who wouldn't think about these things if they think that they were gonna leave this world??
so i feel that i should treasure every moment in my life now. i know that i have been taking things for granted. maybe it's just a WAKE up CALL for me to not be oblivious to my surroundings.
sigh.
went to the playground with chenglong and juraimi.
juraimi say this word written at the playground, "CHEE BYE".
then he pronounced it out loud. when me and chenglong heard it, we were laughing so hard that we were practically rolling about on the floor. hahs. after which, juraimi can't seem to stop saying it. then we talked and talked till 1.30AM. juraimi decided to go home.so they sent me home and i'm here in the end. blogging about my life today.

anyway.
enough of me being all sad and all.
i shall go watch my vcd now!!

2:06 AM
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Friday, June 23, 2006

whoo hoo people.
im over at NIAN SHUN's house doing my cell biology project.
as i expected. i slept for one hour after lunch.
we had noodles for lunch! YUM!
thAt josephine didn't finish her food. NAUGHTY NAUGHTY!
that junzheng even better.
he couldn't come at the last minute and the infomation he gave to nian shun was irrevalent. so we decided to cover his work. we'll just get him to do the summary report for the project.
I LOVE NIAN SHUN!! or maybe just his collection of VCDs at home! WAH.
YAY!!! now i know who to look for when i need to watch some vcd.
he can really open a shop just to rent vcds. now i can fulfill my craving of watching drama serials when i need too!
i just borrowed zi jing zi dian and tian guo de jia yi from him!! whoo hoo.
now i have something to do when i'm freaking bored at home.

i think i'll be going MOS later. to visit my korS, rachel and more people.
argh. i've got a pimple on my eyelid.
it's not that pain. however, it's fuggin' irritating when i rub my eye when it's itchy.
i hope to get over and done with with these projects.
it's really getting on my nerves. thinking that i have to hand it up next week really makes me feel that i should i just GO TO SLEEP! hahs. weird huh? i know it's weird. but i really do feel like sleeping at the thought of it.
well. better get back to doing my project already.
that josephine!!
just commented that i was sticky!!
WAH. thanks woman~~~!!

4:30 PM
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i love my 阮經天!!!
he's so freaking cute.
especially in Green Forest, My Home.
too bad he's the third party!!
ARGH. why do i always like the guy who does not girl at the end of the show??!?
cried ALOT when watching the show. from episode one to the end.
i cried EVEN MORE during the last episode.
sheesh. she didn't die in the end. MY TEARS ARE LIKE WASTED!

6:20 AM
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Thursday, June 22, 2006

argh.
i flunked cbio.
shit. and everybody else did well. i guess that's the consequences for sleeping in class all the time.
my new semester's resolution: NO MORE SLEEPING IN CLASS unless necessary.
yup.
anyway. i lost weight!!
YAY.
im on my way to losing my 10kg!!
whoo hoo.
wish me luck.

still got loads of work to do for school.
shall not sleep AGAIN tonight!
going to nian shun's house tmr.
maybe i'll get to sleep there.
we shall see!!!

11:48 PM
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Sunday, June 18, 2006

yes!
it's finally 7am! now time for me to get ready for my crew meeting and church later.
argh.
decided to watch GREEN FOREST, MY HOME on youtube.com.
hahs.
amy was right! the show's like damn nice!
i shall continue to watch it later.
time to go get ready!!
ciao~

7:07 AM
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ok.
it was one helluva long day today!
i woke up at 9am, rushed to get ready for church.
i had worship practice today. after which, we played games like FOOD FIGHT in the carpeted room, the snake chair thingy, ate PIZZA in the YOUTH ROOM, played another game in the WOW hall and finally, went down to WEST COAST PARK for our worship ministry outing!
i had to leave early because i needed to get ready for work.
worked and worked and worked.
rachel was sick today. i don't know why, i kept making LOADS of mistakes today. maybe it's due to the lack of sleep. i heard NUGGETS as MUSSELS and downed the wrong food. however, i bought it in the end. i also downed an eXTRA EBI because i forgot that we did an extra burger. after which, i punched out at 10.
but i stayed on to help. KOR and i were GOOFING around.
esther and dave came to visit today.
and that SHAM ah.
didn't report for work AGAIN today.
so me and chenglong were put as closers for today.
so i wipe table, sweep the floor, mop the floor, stack the trays and baskets, clean up the place, making CL and DAVIN laugh, stocking up food, washing and scrubbing the kitchen and counter floor and blah blah blah.
that cheng long ah.
forever also forcing me to eat!!
best. i told him that i'll blame him if i can't get a boyfriend!!
came back at 2am.
sigh. now i'm not going to sleep.
got crew meeting at 8am later. i'm afraid if i sleep, i won't be able to wake up.
so i decided to stay awake. AGAIN.
i don't know why, but it's the HOLS. but i'm still not getting enough sleep.
anyway.
i shall blog again tmr. i need to go find other stuff to do.
tata~

3:17 AM
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Hello, let me introduce you to
The characters in the show
One says yes, one says no
Decide - which voice in your head you can keep alive

Even in madness, I know you still believe
Paint me your canvas so I become
What you could never be

I dare you to tell me to walk through the fire
Brand my soul and call me a liar
I dare you to tell me to walk through the fire
I dare you to tell me
I dare you to

Hello, are you still chasing
The memories in shadows
Some stay young, some grow old
Come alive, there are thoughts unclear
You can never hide

Even in madness, I know you still believe
Paint me your canvas so I become
What you could never be

I dare you to tell me to walk through the fire
Brand my soul and call me a liar
I dare you to tell me to walk through the fire
I dare you to tell me
I dare you to

Hello
Hello...
I dare you to tell me to walk through the fire
Brand my soul and call me a liar
I dare you to tell me to walk through the fire
I dare you to tell me
I dare you to
Hello...
Hello...
I dare you to tell me
I dare you to
I dare you to tell me
I dare you to

LOVE THIS SONG.
ENJOY!!

2:25 AM
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Saturday, June 17, 2006

anyway.
my IAC decided to do our project today.
however, we couldn't get into a freaking club.
so in the end, i went home on my night bus, NR3.
i want to thank HAN MING for letting me get a lift to TAKA to take my bus.
hahs.
and also to all my group members. you guys put in the effort for today!

okies.
i left from work with rachel, zhong ming and jingYA for clark quay.
we walked around and decided to have dinner at FUNAN.
at the KOPITIAM. hahs.
after which, JY and ZM left at the MRT station.
me and rachel roamed around to find a way to get to boat quay. it was like 2 bus stops down. WAH.
so near only.
we walked and walked. my feet were killing me. so i decided to take off my heels to walk. it felt so much better.
im never gonna wear heels. EVER. maybe not till my wedding or when i starting working.

anyway.
thank you rachel for accompaning me on this wasted trip!
it was so sweet of you to do so!! love you loads!
i waited alone once rachel left for home.
met up with my group members after like FOREVER.
we couldn't get into a club. so we got an interview from the door marshall.
not so bad la.
took the bus back home. went to MOS to get my stuff.
norch, anabelle and uncle sam were there.
there were like police outside catching teens below 18. i was like freaked to go out. but they were gone once i left. however the police car was still there. so i brisked walk home. at least i wasn't suspicious because i was like wearing clothes that were so not TEENAGERIsH.
hahs.
then i got home and on the COM.
i need to go to church at 930.
so i better go sleep now.

nights, readers!
*yawn*

2:40 AM
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Thursday, June 15, 2006

well. i meant to go down to MOS early to accompany davin.
however, i didn't wake up. AS USUAL.
i shall make it up by going down early tmr.
hee hee.
i rushed down to AMORE in a cab today.
i end work at 5 and my class starts at 530.
gosh. spent like $12.50 on the stupid cab.
anyways. rachel and xavier waited for me as i was exercising.
went PS after that. meet cheng long there.
we watched SHE'S THE MAN.
it was DAMNIT hell nice!
for all those who hasn't watched it yet! PLEASE DO! it's one show that you cannot miss. i broke my record of not crying!!
whoo hoo! instead, i was laughing my ass off!!!
HAHA!
after the movie, i went home alone.
the rest took 171.
in the bus, there were this caucasians on the bus. one guy was like standing so close to me and his elbow almost knocked into my head!
best.
anyways.
i shall go sleep now.
so scoot!!!

12:12 AM
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Wednesday, June 14, 2006

for your information.
if you don't want to read my blog.
my advice to you is DON'T.
i don't know you. i don't see why you have to start bitching about me in your blog. what has happened in MOS has got nothing to you.
PUH-LEAZ.
this has got nothing to you with you. the matter has already been settled.
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I DID BELLY DANCING AND PILATES TODAY!!
DAMN FUN OK!
AMy, Biqi and i simply can't shake our ass and move at the same time. hahs.
we were doing some ass-toning excercise. the teachers are so cute!
going to do new body tmr!!'
YAY!

1:44 AM
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Monday, June 12, 2006

i love my mummy!!
she's gonna get me a NEW GUITAR.
one that can be plugged into an AMPILFIER!
whoo hoo.
i hope she gets my piano tuned too.
very soon, i shall invest in my own keyboard and my own amp.
that's after i get my new phone first!
which means. i have to find a higher paying JOB. FAST!

to YIDE:
sorry for the delay in your LAYOUT!!
you'll get it real soon!

3:45 AM
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won't you just give up?
OMG.
you only can make it SHORT AND SIMPLE because besides those points. you really have nothing to say. but hey! SAY ALL YOU WANT. because from what i know, EVERYBODY LIKED ME before you came along.
so maybe you have APPLE on your side.
SO?? that's PATHETIC! who else do you have besides her?
norch? oh please. she's still my friend. and i RESPECT her for doing what she has done so far. coming forward to apologise on your behalf without letting you know.
come on. i can't believe you're so childish letting norch think that YOU DON'T FRIEND HER ANYMORE. well, maybe i SHOULD go around to ask everybody if they liked me. because i DON'T have to bet on anything, there would definitely be MORE people that would like me to you! so you think you can secure that ONE MILLION DOLLARS of yours? oh well. rich kids like you will never survive out there next time. i can only imagine you splurging your dad's money, not being able to help out in his business or whatsoever. USELESS i would say.

I DO THINK HIGHLY OF MYSELF! LIKE DUH~
I FEEL LIKE I'VE DONE ALOT FOR MY FAMILY, MY FRIENDS AND esp. MOS!
thus, i feel good too!

and the point on LAYLING doing everything.
maybe i should just videotape the ENTIRE shift and show you what you have done.
YES. you come out of the kitchen once in a while to help out but when there's nothing to do or there's vERy few customers, you're there at the back.

on the fact of APPLE being my senior.
YES, I DO RESPECT her. i am grateful that she has been extremely nice to me ever since i stepped into MOS burger. i seriously don't care if she respected me now because she is closer to you and you could have just bad-mouthed me to her. but no matter what. she's still a friend to me. EVERYONE ELSE in MOS is a friend to me, with the EXCEPTION OF YOU.

and so what if i like talking about my ass?
I SIMPLY LOVE IT!
if you can't take it, then that's too bad for you. =P

you tell your cousins your thoughts.
it's so OBVIOUS that you're bitching about us to them right??
come on WOMAN!! what good things can you be telling them about us? you hate us!

and i always ask you what's wrong whenever i see you blackfaced. if you had something against me, you could have just said so then. why wait till now? i gave you opportunities before, but you chose not to tell. i'm really an open person. if you were to tell me what i have done that have wronged you, i wouldn't get angry with you. at least i'll know what to do the next time the same thing occur.

oh. i don't need to go messaging norch whether you're using her. she came to ask me before. but at that time when she asked me, you were still a friend to me. so obviously i don't wanna spoil things between the both of you. however. since our relationship had turned sour, what's the point of not telling her? it's so obvious that i would tell her to be wary. so when that day comes when you reject her for good, she won't feel that sad.

who would tell everybody EVERYTHING about their past. getting slapped isn't a very HONOURABLE thing that can happen to anyone. so if you won't admit it. then just forget it. because i believe what my friends say and no matter how much you deny it, i would still choose to believe MY FRIENDS.

anyway. TO JODY:
HEY GIRL!!! how have you and NETTE been??? i've missed you guys so much! the times that we had during SaM's tuition. me and HAOWEN going over to NETTE's place in between lessons for our math tuition!!!
remember how HAOWEN and NETTE would pillow fight and we would be sitting on your bed placing bets on who would win the fight???
the black VS the white.
HAHS. those were the times.
back to the point. the fight between me and anabelle.
i simply do not care for her anymore. all i just want is an apology from her for calling my best friend a PROSTITUTE and a WHORE and calling me A DISGRACE TO MY FAMILY. she has only been in MOS for like 2 months and she called us this as if she has known us for a long time.
dissing her on my blog is just another way for me to release all the negative energy in me. it's a healthier way. or so i think. thanks for popping by my blog and tagging. i appreciate you being concern about this matter. and I MISS YOU!!!!

to end my post, i would love so say to anabelle this:
i know i'm childish and i think very highly of myself. at least i can look back on my own life, showing the world that i have FEW enemies in it. i don't care of what you would think about me or bitch about me to the people who know me. because i know that the friends i have made in MOS or anywhere else would choose not to believe all the bad things you would say about me. they know me for who i am. and they won't be called my friends if they were to bitch along. so you can carry on bitching all you want. i would never stop COMMENTING ON YOU till both me and rachel get our apologies from you.

2:49 AM
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Sunday, June 11, 2006

anyway. i went to AMORE at PARKMALL with aMY yesterday!
we had so much fun doing stretch fit, working out in the gym and lazing around in the steam bath.
AMY LEE!!! thank you for bringing me there! now i know why you lost so much weight!
hahs.
isn't she sweet?? now we can both work out together and lose weight!
it's like damn cool over there. they have a gym which has EVERYTHING in it. OMG. im gonna get hooked on to AMORE.
i want to look different when i go to school once the holidays start.

i had my small group meeting at 5, so i rushed down to church. after which, we walked all the way to the condo where we were gonna have our bbq and games.
ARGH. food there. fattening. all the workout. gone to waste. maybe not.
but fret not. i've already booked a class at 1 and we're doing pilates!!!
YAY!
amy lee!!! i simply love you!

4:42 AM
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oooooOOO.
Im so scared. Maybe I should just go crying to davin now and tell me that a fuggin’ loser’s bullying me.
Mind you. I can do the same to ISA. It’s just that I don’t want to drag him into this bitch fight that we’re having. As I had stated in my previous entry DATED June 10, ISA is the neutral party and I don’t wish to get him involve in something as unpleasant as this.

Well, I thought it doesn’t matter what I think about you? So I think that you’re useless. Why do you have to explain to me that you’re not? Oh please. Let me fill you in on WHY I think so. You can’t even handle your own relationship with your dad. You have a big quarrel with him and here you come crying at MOS burger. Hello??!!? It’s not like your dad was abusing you or whatsoever. I have been through far more worse situations than you have. I know almost every single family problems that any family could face because I’ve been through it all myself. The only thing I haven’t gone through is where the father rapes the daughter or the mother raping the son.
Other than that, I’ve been through all of them.

Anyway, back to the part where I would complain to davin.
Have you asked yourself why I would do it? It’s because I want to warn him that we have a two-faced BITCH working with us at MOS burger and that he should be WARY of her.
Why can’t I complain to my own friend about you? Look what you are doing on your blog. YOU ARE COMPLAINING!!
Do you know the definition of complain?
Let me help you with that.
Complain: to say that you are annoyed, dissatisfied, or unhappy about something or someone.
There you have it.
So how can you not say that you’re not complaining?

Next on the point of you getting slapped in primary school.
Only you know whether it’s true or not.
I’ve got my ways of finding out information.
All the friends of mind recognizes you before. So stop acting as though it had never happened before. You can deny all you want. You’ll forever be a laughing stock in our eyes.

WAIT. How could you just hurt my feeling like that. I do know everything!! I do! I do!
Man. How could you be SOooOO mean?? (*sob sob)

It’s kinda sad, don’t you think so?
That a fat bitch like me is well liked by almost everybody when you, who is SO MUCH PRETTIER THAN ME, are not as popular and well liked like me
? Sad case man. I really pity you. A LOT. I’m fat and yet everybody else, except you, likes me. WOW. And like almost everybody else HATES you.

I seriously feel that you have a problem understanding me. HEY! I’m using simple English that everyone can understand. But it’s not working for you.
When I said things like lazing around during work or loving myself, I was just giving my own COMMENTS.
Lazing around work is not a very nice way to put it. You’re not doing the job that you’re suppose to. Especially during norch’s shift. When I asked you to come out to help, you give me the black face. You’re working too! You’re still punched in! Why can’t I asked you come out to help? There are tables to be cleared, customers to be attended to, orders to be served, sauces to be stocked up, counter to be cleared, I don’t see why it would hurt you to come out to help? After all, you are still punched in. I know that there may not be a crowd, but hey! You leave me outside to do all the work? You do the same to everyone. Even Layling! You expect her to handle everything outside on her own? Please! She’s a new crew?!? You think it’s such a big deal that you know how to wrap burgers? Come on! The orders are going to jam!!!

If you don’t have a FUCKING PROBLEM with me being rude to ISA, why bother bitching about it? It’s just a waste of time. Isn’t good that I’m rude to him?? Then he won’t like me anymore and get me terminated??
As I would copy that annoying cousin of yours … YES!!!!!

Maybe child prodigies are a little too much for you to understand. Maybe I should use an analogy which you would be more likely to understand. But hey! You won’t be able to anyway. With the level of intelligence that you have, you would never understand what I would say to you.
So therefore, I must put it in SIMPLER terms for your own benefit.

Ah. And then about the topic on my ass. Yes. God gave me this ass of mine. Just like how he gave you your personality. i know I’m fat. I don’t need you to remind me that. But everything God has done in my life is to benefit my own future. At least now I know where I should change and I would do it. As for you, you will never change if you won’t admit what you have done now. There’s no point telling yourself that you won’t want to apologise to us. You yourself know the consequences of bitching about us in your blog. You think we’re such dumb people not to know what has happened? You clearly knew what you were doing. Injustice has been done and we won’t sit back and not do anything about it. But we tolerated. When your cousins started staring at us, that’s when we know you were bitching behind our backs even to your relatives. What have they got to do with us? You need support? There’s so many other people they can stare at. Why us?? It’s obviously got to do with you! You started this whole blogging war when you called Rachel a prostitute and ME, a disgrace to my family.
I don’t know why you are being so stubborn here. You are the root of this problem here.
That’s when norch read you blog, she called to apologise to us.
It’s really sad to see norch sacrificing her own dignity to do so and you not appreciating that. There has to be a reason why she had done so. Aren’t you going to find out why she did it? Maybe she saw that this was going to end on a very pleasant note. If you really cared for her, won’t you just want to listen to her?

Now on RESPECT.
So what if I talk as if I want people to respect me? Excuse me. Everyone knows that I respect them, except you AGAIN. Don’t you know anything about spicing up the atmosphere? We’re only having fun. I don’t do that ALL the time. You weren’t there to see what I have done for MOS burger, so you would never know that I have earned my respect fair and square. I treat MOS burger as my second home. It’s where I know I can find trustable confidante to hear my problems where I can’t voice out at home. Maybe this is what differentiates you from me. I have a personal relationship with almost everyone in MOS burger. Even ISA. That’s why I feel close enough to treat him the way I do and I know that he won’t get angry because of it. It’s not all the time that I treat him that way. He’s knows I’m having fun with him and he plays along too.
It’s sad that you only treat MOS as a work place. Because if you think that way, you’ll never have fun and build relationships here at MOS.

Oh PLEASE. Who wants you as their daughter anyway?

English. Well, what can I say. You suck at it. Hard core.
Yes. I know that I AM indeed 2 years older than you. Hello?? There are people who are WAY much older than me and their English is so much poorer than mine. Don’t come and tell me that the syllabus for English last time wasn’t has strict as ours now. They are older me, so according to YOUR theory, their English SHOULD be better than mine. I have friends who is YOUNGER than me whose English is like WAY much better than mine. So it’s not the matter of age. That’s not an excuse for being POOR at English.

Oh please.
The psychic sham was just a SACARSTIC REMARK! Oh MY GOSH!!! Don’t tell me you didn’t get the hint?! Oh man. You are so much thicker in the head than I thought you were. If I were psychic, I won’t be here in Singapore anymore! I’ll be traveling around the world, making a name for myself. Not here in MOS burger reading about you dissing me on your blog.
When I said that you would act as if nothing had happened, I meant on the day where everyone would know your character and start judging you. Not about how you would react when I blog about you.
SIGH.
I can’t believe I have to explain it to you word for word. It seems as though I’m talking to a 4 year old kid who doesn’t have a clue or whatsoever about what I’m talking about!

AGAIN you don’t know what’s a sarcastic remark when it has been thrown at you.
An actress?? Hahs. Forget it. I won’t wanna get into details that would shock the readers into getting admitted into the hospital.

The thing about me and crying has got nothing to do with this catfight that we’re having right now. As if I would cry just because what you have said about me. I only cry for the people I care for. Not for some low life idiot that has nothing to do but comment on me crying. Apparently, I had something on today. I WAS BUSY GETTING MY ASS TONED! That’s why I was not at MOS. I would gladly do it myself and davin would not need to lift a finger to help.
I’m not afraid of you. Seriously. Why would I? I don’t want to get anyone else involve in my own problems. But you have gone too far by calling Rachel a prostitute. You can get into serious trouble for doing so. That’s why davin came into the picture. Uncle sam was telling him on the seriousness this can bring about if her parents knew about it. So be glad that davin is the one that’s handling it and not the court.

About being a disgrace to the population, don’t put me together with you. At least I don’t go calling people prostitute or whore just because I hate them or because they bought and use the same perfume as me. I know I’m being childish by blogging back to your COMMENTS on your blog. I told you before.
TWO CAN PLAY THE SAME GAME.
I’m only giving you what you have given to us.
I expect you to be ready for it.
I know I’m a bitch.
May the bitch-iest woman win.

3:00 AM
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this here is the continuation:
PART TWO PEOPLE.
ENJOY!

sad bitch.
you just NEVER learn do you.
so what if i'm fat?
at least i have a conscience.
not like you?????
!!
please.
don't get norch to clean up your mess for you.
it's FUCKING disgusting that she has to help you apologise to us.
since you're so fucking useless.
maybe you should just stop schooling.
no one is born weak in math.
it's only the matter whether you want to score well in it or not.
maybe because you're too fucking useless to try.
and waste all your fucking time bitching about us.
by all means.
GO AHEAD AND BITCH.
soon many people WILL DETEST you.
don't blame us for showing your true colours to them.
YARH.
im a fat bitch!
so??!?!
I ADMIT TO IT.
YES I AM.
AND THAT'S GONNA CHANGE.
BUT YOU.
YOU'LL JUST BE THE SAME OLD BITCHY GIRL THAT YOU HAVE BEEN IN PRIMARY SCHOOL
GETTING slaPPED?
ouch,
THAT MUST HAVE HURT .
SIGH.
IF YOU DIDN'T CARE ABOUT US...
why IN THE WORLD DO YOU STILL BOTHER BLOGGING ABOUT US??
PLEASE LAH.
I THINK YOU'RE JUST JEALOUS THAT MORE PEOPLE TREATS US BETTER THAN YOU.
PLEASE?
SO WHAT IF I AM FAT??
AT LEAST I ACCEPT WHO I AM.
AND LEARN TO LOVE MYSELF.
DON'T THINK YOUR INSULTS ARE GONNA BRING ME DOWN.
YOUR USE OF ENGLISH TOTALLY SUCKS.
ALL MY FRIENDS ARE JUST LAUGHING AT THE WAY YOU USE IT.
YOU CAN'T EVEN BRING YOUR MESSAGE ACROSS TO YOUR READERS WITHOUT MAKING A SPELLING ERROR.
AND IF YOU CAN'T BE NICE TO PEOPLE LIKE RACHEL?
YOU CAN'T BE NICE TO EVERYBODY ELSE.
OH PLEASE.
SO WHAT IF IM OLDER THAN YOU?
HELLO.
WHAT ABOUT THOSE CHILD PRODIGIES?
I KNOW THEY ARE BORN SMART.
WHICH IS OF COURSE .... SO NOT LIKE YOU.
AT LEAST THEY KEEP AN EFFORT TO MAINTAIN THEIR REPUTATION OF BEING A CHILD PRODIGY.
AND THEY ARE PUTTING MORE EFFORT THAN YOU ARE TRYING TO EVEN STUDY.
AND RESPECT.
HOW MANY TIMES DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU BEFORE IT GETS INTO THAT FUCKING THICK HEAD OF YOURS.
WHAT HAS ME PLAYING WITH ISA GOT TO DO WITH YOU???????
WHAT IS YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM??
IF IT HURTS YOU SO MUCH ...
GO COMPLAIN TO HIM LAH.
GET ME TERMINATED.
IM NOT AFRAID OF THAT.
AND THERE IS A BIG DEAL ABOUT US ENTERING MOS EARLIER ...
IT MEANS WE ARE YOU SENIORS.
WHERE'S THE RESPECT THAT WE'RE SUPPOSE TO GET FROM YOU???
YOU TALK SO MUCH ON RESPECT.
BUT YOU YOURSELF DON'T PRACTICE IT.
IF YOU CAN'T PRACTICE WHAT YOU PREACH ...
DON'T EVEN BOTHER TELLING ME TO RESPECT OTHERS.
I WON'T TAKE ADVICE FROM SOME FUCKING LOSER LIKE YOU.
AND THE THING ABOUT MY ASS. IM PROUD OF IT. BECAUSE IT'S WHAT GOD HAS GIVEN ME. AND I WON'T GO HATING MYSELF FOR IT.
I DON'T NEED SPECS EITHER. BECAUSE I KNOW WHAT I AM READING AND WRITING. I DON'T NEED HELP. MY UNDERSTANDING OF ENGLISH IS WAY BETTER THAN YOURS.
SO THANKS FOR THE UN-NECESSARY CONCERN FOR ME NEEDING TO WEAR SPECS.
BY THE WAY, I HAVE PERFECT EYESIGHT.
I FORGOT TO SAY THIS YESTERDAY.
YOU YOURSELF HAVE NO ORIGINALITY.
THE kuku THING THAT YOU HAVE ON-GOING WITH NORCH.
IT STARTED WITH ME, RACHEL AND NORCH.
SO PLEASE.

2:36 AM
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all you readers out there...
if you wanna know what i wrote to that inevitably stupid LOSER ANABELLE HENG on MSN yesterday, i'm gonna post it here on my blog.
you can go make reference to her blog --> http://anabelle-is-me.blogspot.com/
you can see how fuggin' bitchy, childish and stupid she is. don't only read the recent post.
also read the post on the 21st of May and you would know how this WAR started out.
believe me. me and rachel never saw this coming.
(P.S: HEY BITCH! I'M HELPING YOU ADVERTISE YOU BLOG HERE. LOOK NOW YOU'VE GOT MORE READERS!!!)

fucking brainless bitch. you better watch out. you messing with the wrong people.
please lah. if your cousins weren't staring at us, how would they know that we're staring at them? fine. you're such a 2 faced bitch. don't blame us if you get slapped by a total stranger out in public and get humiliated by it. because you deserve it. calling rachel a whore?!?!?! please lah. who do you think you are ????????? GOD?? stop acting like you know everything because it's fucking disgusting. after all. WE WERE WORKING AT MOS EARLIER THAN YOU. SO WHAT IF IM FAT??????? YOU'RE NOT EXACTLY MISS GORGEOUS AT ALL. BESIDES YOUR NOSE, EVERYThiNG ELSE IS ALL CRAP!!! EVEN YOUR PERSONALITY SUCKS. COMPARED TO YOU, I DO KNOW MORE ThiNGS THAN YOU!! RUDE TO ISA?? HAHS. YOU DON'T KNOW ANYThiNG LA. IF YOU KNOW ME ... IM LIKE THAT TO EVERY MANAGER. IT'S NOThiNG.

"preparing herself to become a protitute in future", YOU BETTER WATCH WHAT YOU SAY!
IM SO GONNA MAKE YOU REGRET IT.
(note: please do brush up on your english. your spelling is horribly disgusting.)
AND PLEASE.
STOP ACTING LIKE YOU'RE SO NICE TO EVERY. (*everybody)
BECAUSE VERY SOON, EVERYONE'S GONNA SEE WHO YOU REALLY AH.(*are)
AT LEAST I KNOW I'VE GOT NOThiNG TO hIDE. YOU WANT ME TO BITCH INFRONT OF YOU.
YOU BETTER NOT CRY. I'M NOT GOING TO BE A NICE PERSON TO YOU ANYMORE. YOU'RE SERIOUSLY MESSING WITH THE WRONG PEOPLE.
SO WHAT IF YOU'RE RICH?? BIG DEAL! IT DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN USE IT TO MANIPULATE THE PEOPLE AT MOS.
YOU'RE IN NO POSITION TO CALL RACHEL A WHORE. YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW HER. OR ARE YOU JUST JEALOUS THAT SHE KNOWS MORE GUYS THAN YOU DO? PLEASE LAH. SO IF YOU HANG AROUND GUYS YOURSELF... IT MAKES YOU ARE WHORE TOO LAH!
PLEASE THINK TRUE WISELY BEFORE YOU BLOG ABOUT IT.PLEASE BE SMARTER WHEN IT COMES TO WORDS TOO.
IM SORRY.
AND SINCE YOU ARE SO SMART TO KNOW THAT WE'RE NOT BITCHING ABOUT THE PEOPLE WHO WERE SITTING NEXT TO THEM
I BEG OF YOU.
PLEASE USE IT ON SOMETHING MORE RESOURCEFUL
LIKE YOUR STUDIES??!?!?
PUT IT TO gooD USE.
AND SO WHAT IF YOU HAVE NORCH ON YOUR SIDE??
LIKE IM REALLY SCARED ABOUT IT.
I DON'T GIVE A DAMN.
BY ALL MEANS.
GIVE ME A HARD TIME DURING WORK.
I DON'T CARE.
BECAUSE IM DOING MY JOB.
I DON'T CARE ABOUT BEING THE TOP CREW ANYMORE.
all , its just the begining ! :D ｡◕‿◕｡ BUT ONE THING'S FOR SURE.
YOU'LL NEVER BE AS gooD AS ME.
BECAUSE, and i quote from you, " I KNOW EVERYTHING".
DO YOU EVEN CARE IF I WAS RUDE TO ISA???
I BET ISA DOESN'T CARE ABOUT IT LAH.
AND YOU DO?
SINCE WHEN DO YOU FUCKING CARE???
YOU'RE ONLY USING THAT TO BITCH ABOUT ME!
SO???? RESPECT? YOU'VE GOTTA RESPECT YOURSELF BEFORE OTHERS RESPECT YOU!
RESPECT HAS TO BE EARNED. AND I DID IT ON MY OWN ACCORD. EVEN BEFORE NORCH AND DAVIN CAME. MY RESPECT HAS ALREADY BEEN EARNED LONG BEFORE YOU ENTERED MOS. I DON'T CARE IF YOU RESPECT ME OR NOT. BECAUSE EVEN IF YOU DO.. I WON'T APPRECIATE IT.

SO WHAT IF I CAN MAKE UP STORIEs??? I CAN DO IT BETTER THAN YOU CAN. BECAUSE I HAVE A BRAIN. AND, i quote from you AGAIN, "I KNOW EVERYTHING!" EVEN IF I DON'T KNOW EVERYTHING. AT LEAST I KNOW WAY MORE THAN YOU.

HOW DO YOU EVEN KNOW RACHEL'S USING XAVIER??
IF THAT'S THE CASE, THEN I CAN SAY THE SAME ABOUT YOU AND NORCH.
YOU'RE JUST USING HER TO ELEVATE YOUR POSITION IN MOS.
PLEASE. IT'S NOT WORKING. EVEN THE NEW COMERS WOULD BE MORE WELCOMED THAN YOU.

TWO CAN PLAY THE SAME GAME. YOU WANNA STEP ON OUR TOES. BY ALL MEANS GO AHEAD.
WE WERE BEING NICE ENOUGH NOT BITCHING IN FRONT OF YOU.
NOT HUMILIATING YOU IN PUBLIC.
AT LEAST WE KNOW ARE CONSCIENCE ARE CLEAR.
I DON'T MIND BRINGING THIS UP TO THE ENTIRE MOS BURGER PEOPLE.
LET THEM DECIDE WHO'S THE VICTIM HERE.
AND WHEN THAT TIME COMES.
PLAYING INNOCENT WILL NOT HELP.
BEING NICE TO EVERYONE'S NOT GOING TO HELP EITHER.
PLEASE.
YOU CALL US BRAINLESS. THINK OF IT THIS WAY. IF WE ARE BRAINLESS??
HOW ABOUT YOU?
I DON'T SEE YOU BEING SMARTER THAN THE BOTH OF US.
SO YOU HAVE NO BRAIN AT ALL LAH? YOU CAN'T EVEN DO SIMPLE MATH.
PLEASE DON'T PIT YOURSELF AGAINST US.
IT'S NOT GOING TO DO YOU ANY gOOD.
YOU CAN BRING IN LAWYERS AND WHATSOEVER.
BUT YOU'RE STILL GONNA LOSE NO MATTER WHAT.
do take my advice, please think before you act on it.
and sometimes... tolerating others helps.
maybe then the world can be a better place.
i know you're going to tell me to STOP PRETENDING THAT I KNOW EVERYTHING.
but seriously.
it's not gonna help once you're out in the coporate world.
it may seem far.
but it's so much better if you start practicing it now.
you think i never had anything to bitch about you before you started the whole perfume thing with rachel??
but because i treated you as a friend. i didn't.
i just kept it in.
im not being all-so-sainty here.
IT'S ON HOW YOU SHOULD TREAT OTHERS.
since you started it with us.
we'll be nice and play the same with you.
and don't think you can use my weight issue against me.
so what if im fat?
i don't need looks to gain respect from people.
you call rachel a whore???
you're just degrading yourself by doing so.
please.
ALWAYS THINK BEFORE YOU DO ANYTHING.
WHETHER OR NOT IT BENEFITS YOU IN THE LONG RUN.
LET ME WARN YOU.
THOSE YOU THINK THAT ARE YOUR FRIENDS IN MOS WOULD LEAVE YOU ONCE THEY KNOW WHAT KIND OF PERSON YOU ARE.
i don't care if you guys hate me.
im leaving anyway. who gives a damn?
all i know is that i'm doing my job.
NOT SLACKING AT THE BACK BEFORE I EVEN PUNCH OUT.

YOU MADE A WRONG MOVE TO PIT YOURSELF AGAINST ME. IM NOT SOMEBODY THAT YOU CAN PLAY WITH.
SO WHAT IF I CRY ALL THE TIME?
THERE'S A DIFFERENT SIDE OF ME WHICH YOU HAVEN'T SEEN YET.
EVEN MY CLOSEST FRIEND RACHEL HASN'T SEEN IT YET.
LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKES.
YOU'LL BE AN ASS IF YOU DON'T.
oh wait.
im not done yet.
why would you ever bring my family into the picture?
how would you know that i'm a disgrace to the family??????
you don't even know my family lah.
and if you do??
please.
you'll know that i'm not the one disgracing my family.
wad you have said about us may be hurtful.
but we'll forget it sooner or later.
but the humiliation you would face.
would scar you for life.
do unto others what you want others to do unto you.
it's as simple as that.
since you have made your choice.
you make sure you don't regret it.

1:26 AM
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Saturday, June 10, 2006

anyways.
my friend dared me to do something on JAN's blog today.
hahs.
daring me to put all the horny stuff in it.
HAHS.
it was so fuggin' funny.
i wonder what her reaction would be.
hahs. never ever dare me to do anything. cuz i will do it. except to strip. anything else i'll dare.
WAH.
i miss crescent.
i miss 3s2/4s2.
i miss amy lee.
i miss everyone.

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as for anabelle,
i don't know whether what i said has gotten into that brain of yours.
if it didn't, i'll post whatever i said to you online.
now there's no reason to say that you didn't see it.

4:17 AM
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like what rachel said.
THINGS ARE REALLY GETTING OUT OF HAND.

we were having such a GREAT time at MOS until ANABELLE came along.
now it is so evident that MOS is split up into 3 groups.
DAVIN's group, NORCH's group and ISA's group.
urgh.
why must it happen??
i gave her a piece of my mind.
after doing so. i decided to let things go.
rachel's right.
leave it all up to GOD to handle this.

but im not sure what happens tomorrow.
but she better not push me.
I WILL DO IT.
and nobody can stop me then.

3:08 AM
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Thursday, June 08, 2006

COMMON TEST is finally over!!!!
YAY.
my holidays officially STARTS from NOWWWW!!!!
whoo hoo.
going to bras basah with rachel and jason later. but i'll be meeting my love HUSBAND rachel at MOS first.
today has been a very VERY good day for me.
everything went how i expected it to be ... or maybe even better!!
the paper was OK. passable. or so that's how i feel anyways.
i managed to get a cab to reach school ON TIME for the paper.
i couldn't go out with my classmates because i had no more cash left on me.
but i'm going out later anyways.
my friend had good news for me!!!!!!!
she's attached.
my bestest best friend's also attached!!!!!!!!!!!
how great can the day get??
sigh.
im happy for everyone.
but is anyone out there happy for me?
i don't really care about that anymore. because i know that i'm living the life to the fullest right now. and i always ALWAYS will put others before self.
hahs.
got to go get ready.
i'll blog again tonight!

12:52 PM
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i think i shall change layout tmr.
hehx.
i know.
this entry is rather random.

1:16 AM
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it is approximately halfway into the week.
and tmr's my last paper. YAY.
OBC common test at 9am tmr.
at least i can say im more prepared for this paper than CBIO.
maybe it's because i actually LISTEN to this lecture.
hahs.
but i feel more confident anyways.
i'd better finish up my last chapter than i would be able to sleep.

1:11 AM
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Tuesday, June 06, 2006

it has been a bad week for me so far.
i found out that my dad's going all the way to DUBAI for one and and half years on business.
the only family member of mine who really understands me.
argh.
now i don't have any where to go to when i quarrel with my mum.
blah.
everyone said that dubai's a nice place.
hopefully my dad would love it there.
to make my week even worse.
my cell biology CT was a total flop.
those that i didn't really study much all came out in the paper which is worth alot of marks.
i'd be happy if i ever pass.
shuni's also not going to hve tuition with me and rach. which means i have to find other means of getting my money for my phone.
shucks.
where am i going to find $200???
die. die. die.
forget.
i'll just have to take one step at a time.
i've got all the time till sunday.

2:09 PM
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Sunday, June 04, 2006

whoo hoo~
MOS burger has it's very own hairstylist!!!
DAVIN GOH!
hahs.
i bought my long long pins today.
now i can do my curry puff head and i can also make many different hairstyles with it.
YAY.
exams are like coming.
im having my cell bio CT this monday 3pm-5pm.
mAN.
i haven't finish studying yet.
can't play anymore.
must study study study!
OBC is on thursday.
so i won't care about it now.
i can still manage to cope with it.
yup.
better go sleep!!
CELEBRATION SUNDAY TMR!!!!!!!
whoo hoo.
too bad the dance was cancelled.
i really really wanted to see sharene dance on stage.
boo hoo.
hee hee.
i shall go sleep!

2:01 AM
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Friday, June 02, 2006

i was kinda in a bad mood today.
woke up with a splitting headache.
anyways. to all my friends who were concerned about me today, i'm ok now.
thanks for being there for me.

after school, i went to mos to study.
when rachel came, i just broke down and cried.
i couldn't really hold back my tears. they just wanna come out. so i cried and cried for like 15 mins. rachel went home at about 1030. i stayed on to study.
cheng long came over to talk after work. i cried then again. who ask him to ask me why i was so moody today?!?
and he just keep stuffing my face with fries. one after another.
that boy ah. sigh. what would i do without him? he's always there to make me laugh when i'm done. i hope i won't lose this friend. he's a friend WORTH keeping.

at 1135, i really needed to rush home. so i just walked out of MOS.
cheng long and xavier put their work aside, just to send me home.
thanks you guys!
cheng long was cheering me up all the way home.
thanks man!!
xavier ... that boy ah. thanks for carrying my bag for me, although it was uncalled for. but thanks anyway.

1:18 AM
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Thursday, June 01, 2006

this blog post is dedicated to my BESTEST BEST friend anyone could have ... RACHEL!

thank you for being there to listen to me complain and cry to you. you have indeed been very patient with me.
THANKS ALOT HUSBAND!! hee hee.
we must go shopping one day.
it's a MUST.

12:50 AM
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im damn blardie fucked up right now?
i'm like 17 and my mum treats me as though i'm 10.
FOR CHRIST SAKE!!! she allows my 15 year old brother to go clubbing and i cant even stay in school or KAP to study or go for CCA???
grah.
i'll just let time straighten out her thoughts.
please. I'M NOT FOOLING AROUND.
which part of me studying, working my ass off and making her happy fooling around to her?
just because i go home late at night does not mean i fool around at night ok.
cant she just understand that.
fuck iT la.
as what rachel has said, i shouldn't let her affect my mood to study.
i've still got a long way more in NP.
it's only just the beginning
bleagh.

12:31 AM
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