{THE UNCHERISHED}

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

hahs.
decided to start a new blog.
i obviously dun wanna let certain ppl to see this.
but even if they do ...
i dun really know wad will happen.

just venting my anger here... all i really wanna say is at the bottom.

u say tt i have a black face ... wads wrong with having it? u call it black??!! if u can't stand it, dun turn around lahx. ask yourself why i have come to having this black face?? to think that i have even helped u. i can now only say that i was fucking stupid to even help u after i fell out with a certain someone. but heyz, who cares anyway ... all i know is that i've treated my frens as they shld. i nv held anything against u guys. although i was mainly the target for all of u to suan at, i nv put it to heart no matter how much it hurts. covering up with just laughing along. and like wad the hell lahx ... one wrong thing tt comes out of my fucking mouth and BOOM!!!! u guys hates me.

man ~ if i had attitudes like the both of you all ... i wld have hated the world by now.

i really dun get it . one minute u can treat nicely and the next u fall out with me! i mean ... wad the hell man~ u all can make fun of me ... suan-in me all the time ... u think tt's not mean to me at all ??? have you ever thought of how i wld feel to become the subject of your joke??? and now ... only one wrong sentence tt comes of my fucking mouth and you hate me!!! wads the world coming to man. yeah ... so wad if i had said things about your grandmother?? of all the people in the world, u shld know tt i dun mean wadeva stupid things tt comes out of my mouth. yes. i know i shld be guilty and feel apologetic. but hey! i APOLOGISED!!! and you dun know how guilty i had been for that one week. but of coz u wldn't care. it's u who do not want to accept my apology.

but at the end ... i believe tt God wants to put me thru' this for a reason. well, if we were all not to go on with our life and still brood over this phase in live ... den Christ has certainly died for us for nothing. Christ had died for us when we were yet sinners, before we come to this world and our lives would not as it wld be today. so matter how much this goes on, even if were to know each other in future ... i will still carry on. living the life i want ...

just wanna let u guys know ... "after venting my anger above" ... tt no matter how much u hate me ... i will still treat u as a fren ... i wld also not forget the good times we shared, the laughter we had, how u've helped me and how i've helped you, the times in REAP, dec ... etc.
if i were to be given a second chance to live life again ... i wld want to be frens with all of you again. i nv regretted having u guys as frens. thanks so much for being my fren ... really appreciate it. u all have made me feel special ...

come to think of it. im just sad .. not tt im guilty or anything .. but is tt i had lost a fren, who i can relate to, talk to, have fun with, study e maths with, to me ... she wld always be my close fren. though now drifted apart .. all i can do is just to pray for her and wish her luck in her future endeavours.

if you ever read this ... you know who you are. thanks for caring for me when i was sick, i'll nv forget wad u had done for me. if wad i had really said was hurtful to you, i just hope when we leave this skool, u wld just forget me.so ... wish u all the best .may your dreams all come true.

to you guys .... my prayers wld always have u all included inside. ALWAYS.

7:20 PM
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