{THE UNCHERISHED}

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

i've decided to give up on love.
maybe one day some guy would love me for who i am. but till that day comes i won't believe in it.
all i just wanted was that someone would love me the way i would love him. is it too much to ask for?
i'm like tired- emotionally, physically and mentally.
waiting for someone for so long is EXTREMELY tiring. at the end of the day, the person doesn't even like you.
i hate it.
i hate relationships. i hate the pain you have to go through when somebody says they don't like you. i hate it when you have to face the pain of breaking up.
sometimes im afraid of committing myself into a relationship because im afraid of breaking up. maybe that explains why i haven't been in a relationship throughout the 17 years of my life. i hate sad endings. i don't want to end up like my parents.
i hate fights. i hate crying. i hate quarrelling.

so i think i'll concentrate on my studies for now. that's the most important thing to me now. i'll just take things as they are. a step at a time. no rush. i want my first relationship to be almost perfect.
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im just a girl wanting to be loved, to meet a guy that would bring peace to my insecure heart. i found that one guy whom i thought would be the one, but things had gone astray. it did not turn out what i had expected it to be. instead, it took a turn for the worst. now we aren't even talking any more. how bad can get things get?
i wish to meet a guy like that in a fairytale. who would sweep me off my feet, make me feel loved and secure. a guy who would make my heart beat faster at the sound of his voice. a guy who would make me blush at the touch of his hand.
however, the harsh reality begs to differ.
there is no such guy.
if only there was.

8:20 PM
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