{THE UNCHERISHED}

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

just call me crazy, but i'm gonna talk about love in my entry today.
on my way home from MOS just now, i was doing alot of thing. i mean ALOT.
what is love? i asked myself countless of times but never seem to get a satisfying answer.
i know people perception of love may be based on that of those in TV serials, all the drama-mama ones. i used to be one of those people who believed that fairy tales do happen in reality. however, time has proven me wrong. it's not as smooth-going as it seems.as i grew up, many situations have changed my perspective on love. but there was one particular incident that would scar me for life, making me afraid to experience what love is- my parents fighting all day long which ended up in a divource.
i used to cry alot when my parents fought. i prayed to GOD, asking him why do i have such a difficult family? can't i just have a normal family just like anybody else? when my parents finally decided to have a divource, i was only SEC2 !!! the best thing was, their court hearing was on the BESTEST DAY EVER- valentine's day.
i never really liked V day after that. to make things worse, it was 6 days before my birthday!!!
this was some birthday present i had from my parents which i wished that never had happened. i hated my family and GOD then.
i mean, how could they have done this to me????
do they not know or even CARE about my feelings???
you could never imagine how ANGRY i was with them.
i started being even more rebellious than i was.
staying in school, not wishing to go home. going out with my friends without my parents knowing, etc...

i don't know. but some how GOD spoke to me in a way.
telling me that everything happens for a reason and that i should embrace the new future. it suddenly came to me that i should be happy for my parent because they were much better off not staying and being together.

im a much happier kid now thanks to GOD!
=D

11:41 PM
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